sometimes i wish the internet was like those progressive commercials
where youre in a whole new world and you can see people and thatd be freaking awesome
i always feel depressed, like i want to cut myself (at the least). All the other girls are doing it, right? i always see these stories about these people who killed themselves and I see how their family and friends are absolutely devistated. I pull a smile through all the bullshit i have to live through because i know that there are worse cases and that somebody may love me. and to crush someone’s soul like that kills me. especially when they love me.
ive told my mom i felt depressed and she laughed at me, insisting i was asking for attention or i “didnt want to sleep”
I remember that video. harry styles has said “ive always wanted to be one of those people that dont really care about what other people think of them, but i just dont think that i am”. That quote is the most acurate description of me i have ever read because i take everything to the heart, too scared to ask about the truth. all i want to know is the good things because the bad things tear me down like a loose tent in the wind. Like a plate on the edge of the table. Like a gone wrong building you made with sticks that you were so proud of, but it tumbled so easily because it was fragile. Because i am that loose tent. i am that plate at the edge of the table. i am that creation that you were once so proud of. for, I am fragile.
every morning i step up to the mirror and look at myself. i see the good inside and out and i tell myself because i deserve to know. but sometimes i have those days. i think everyone does. if i cant or refuse to see anything good, then i force myself to see the worst. i get naked, yes, buck naked and i stare at myself. what if i had cuts. what if i was pale, thin, absolutely disgusted of myself so much that i couldnt bear to let anyone see me as i am. what if i had a paleish purple skin or a thin bruise wrapped around my neck from my own, and other people’s, asenine choices. Because how dare i ever let anyone rule my life like that so much that i damage myself when they havent even laid a finger on me.
Because I AM beautiful. i dont give a shit what you say or what your almighty god says or what your fucked up society thinks. i am fucking gorgeous and anyone who objects to my beliefs can go fuck off because they dont deserve to know me, to get a reaction. to be my friend.
"We have a choice. To live or to exist"
""i cant buy tickets to the concert this year""
louis what have u done to me
Harry what r u doing
you have GOT to watch this